A cloudy day where I decide to leave stuff for later yet again.

Hello!!! My name is Yukii, and today is the day where thanks to Ghosttundra, I've decided I wanted to make a blog here instead of finally finishing the 37th comic page of an Invader Zim fancomic. Why? Because:

1- Ghosttundra's cool

2-I want to post my art somewhere else that isn't social media. Because fighting with the algorithm is exhausting, and if I get to win the algorithm maybe I'll just get hated on by people who don't know that not every 14 year old is amazing at art.

I hope someone finds this blog and likes my art. It isn't the best, but i'm on an everyday journey to getting better. When i'm older, I want to make comics. I feel like I have too much imagination, and it would be a pity to let it go to waste and not share it.

But of course, I've decided to not share my original stuff just yet and practice doing a silly Invader Zim comic. I'm trying to find a good enough artstyle, practice color theory (kind of), and just practice art in general. You know, anatomy (I barely know anatomy), perspective...that stuff. But also, just doing it for fun.

The plan right now is that when I finish this comic, if a miracle happens and I'm still interested on Invader Zim, I'll make a sequel I already know what is gonna be about, and then start with my original stuff.

I want to make a comic about magical girls, but with my own twist, heavily inspired in madoka magica and being developed since i'm about 11 years old. I'm adding more and more stuff until I have everything in place.

And I also have in mind some "lost media game!!" type of video, like Laceys flash games you know? But even though I use that example to describe what I want to do, that has been on my mind since i'm 10 years old, and actually used to be a gacha club series. It was more inspired on Doki Doki Literature Club, but I'm still thinking about how I'm gonna do this one, because I feel like for now, the story is more just shock and making a girl miserable for no reason and, I don't want that for my creations. But neither do I want to let that story go to the trash because I like the characters on it.

So..I think that's all you should know about me. Time to show whatever art I have on my computer since it's...relatively new.









And that's all for today. I wanted to show my favourite art of Lacey's Diner but it keeps breaking the whole post so I'll leave it here. Hope you survive guys.

Thoughts of a chronically online teenager about roleplay.

Well actually, maybe I'm the least chronically online kid if I were to be compared with my ex-classmates. I do pass all of my days on the internet, but really, not using tiktok 24/7 changes your mind a lot. I mean, I still use it an hour a day or a little bit more because with my new phone, I have easier access to the app, as it works faster. But, back when I was 11, I swear all my life was tiktok. And my god (who was actually another 11 year old kid that I was in love with and depended emotionally on). I barely remember drawing that year. Or maybe, I just drawed a lot more traditionally back then, as I didn't have a drawing tablet. But yet, I swear my opinion on something changed as fast as I saw the comments on a post. It was pathetic. It's pathetic how people change opinions as fast as they see a tiktok about it or the comments of a tiktok. It's like they're all part of a hive mind. All mindless sheep following...something. I forgot what the saying was. Was it following the wind? Nevermind.

Well, the thing is, I finally escaped from the grasps of character.ai and any sort of ai chatbot, and found a roleplay partner. You call them that right? With actual people, I've never done roleplay with anybody who weren't my friends, and yet they were the closest friends I had. Closest because I actually didn't have any other friends other than them, up until first year of secondary, I didn't find making new friends necessary. And it wasn't. And online friends...well I did make one, back in seventh grade of primary. We still talk and she's probably my closest friend at the moment. But that isn't the point. I keep going away from the point but I like it.

Well we're roleplaying on tumblr, it's fun. I always liked watching people roleplay but now, I'm not watching them. I'm part of it. I feel great. Almost cried when I found a potential someone to roleplay with because i'm too shy to join a roleplay with more than a single person on it, and he just made the account so...yeah. I've wanted to roleplay with someone so bad. But my friends that I used to roleplay with before are not in the same fandom as me. Actually, we roleplayed with our O.C's. But i'm so obsessed with Invader Zim I can't for the love of me roleplay something that isn't related to that and not get bored on the span of maybe half an hour. Back then I was so interested on my O.C's, so yeah. But also, our roleplays were...uh...definetely something I don't want to talk about here. (Just in case, we were 11.)

So, my idiot self was used to getting fast answers because we roleplayed on whatsapp or discord, and since i'm stupid I was expecting the same of tumblr (I don't know why, that's definetely stupid.) and I staid the whole day waiting for an answer and I barely slept. And funny enough I dreamt with him answering. 7 times in the same night. It's insane how "excited" I can get about something. Or I don't know I think that was excitement, or so I guess, I don't know actually. I'm possibly mentally ill or something.

Then I woke up and he still didn't answer LMAO.

Uhh, I was gonna say what happened then, but you know, I forgot. I just remember talking to my parents about the roleplay after we actually roleplayed something and that somehow ending up on me crying my ass off. And then that ending up on me and my dad watching Invader Zim? Cool.

Uhh oh yeah and it somehow ended up on my parents saying they're gonna search a therapist for me, but, last time we searched one, we never found one.

I just want a diagnosis, I want to know why I'm so different. Am I autistic?? Do I have ADHD??? Do I have a personality disorder?? Do I have some weird type of depression? I want to know...

But that's all for today, people. I survived thursday. I hope you guys too. Good night.