I'm scared

[dy1ng_onar4inb0w]

Yesterday, I think that some man whistled at me and K. I'm scared now, because as always I have to go on and overthink it.

What if it genuinely is my fault, what if i'm just being exaggerated, what if something happens to me and K, I don't feel comfy wearing skirts and everything I like anymore.

And I don't want to talk to my mom cause I feel like she'll say that I just have to stop wearing skirts. I know she just wants to protect me, but I also don't want to lose my individuality to some brainless men whistling at me.

I feel angry, scared, sad, everything. Today I put on a skirt, and now I want to cry. I don't want to go out, i'm scared.

My only comfort at the moment is thinking that Rocío probably went through the same. Because of course I have to use my favourite character as comfort. And maybe she also thought she was being exaggerated? Or that she was just hearing things and that she was being stupid over it?? 

I'm too fucking anxious maybe. But i'm still scared of those boys.

Stupid, stupid boys, invoking fear into random girls they thought looked pretty or something, washing away their individuality. I wonder how many times this happened.

And maybe it's not even the way I dress. Maybe it could have happened even if I had pants but K had pants, and that day she was all covered, JUST LIKE ME! I HAD THE LONGEST JACKET EVER! And it still happened. There's no way of escaping it??? Do I have to live in fear no matter what???

What was this called?

I don't know.

I don't want to get out. I want to look pretty at home and just at home now...

Edit: It's most likely they weren't whistling at me and K. So, i'm fine now...kind of...

Comments

[bryce4_4]

I feel so bad for Women having to deal with this stuff. I wonder if the boys you encounter that scares you are the stupid ass "bad boy" type people. It's so strange also, because it feels like people fetishize rape sometimes from what I see in stuff like dark romance books. As a Boy, I don't really have people look at me and lick, but sometimes I just want to beat up those type of people want to rape any gender. I hate rape jokes. And it's always about Men almost all the time. Because when its men, rape is not serious. I hate it. It's also racist as the "drop the soap" joke basically view Black Men as predators. (Also homophonic rape jokes are too)But going back, I hate rape in general. I understand the discomfort in wearing skirts to be honest. It's pretty uncomfortable. I would rather wear more clothes then less too. But it's becoming really fucking hot and I going to have to strip soon as 100 degrees comes into my life. I hope you stay safe out there, and hey, learn self-defense if you want. Just, even if I've been in your situation, when you see a guy who looks dangerous (attracted or not attracted) walking towards you when horrible intentions in his eyes, run the fuck away. Don't look back, keep going, and be aware of your surroundings, always look where your going. Anyways, I hope you have a lovely day or night, and please stay safe, bye bye!

[dy1ng_onar4inb0w]

Thank you man :)