I'm scared

[dy1ng_onar4inb0w]

Yesterday, I think that some man whistled at me and K. I'm scared now, because as always I have to go on and overthink it.

What if it genuinely is my fault, what if i'm just being exaggerated, what if something happens to me and K, I don't feel comfy wearing skirts and everything I like anymore.

And I don't want to talk to my mom cause I feel like she'll say that I just have to stop wearing skirts. I know she just wants to protect me, but I also don't want to lose my individuality to some brainless men whistling at me.

I feel angry, scared, sad, everything. Today I put on a skirt, and now I want to cry. I don't want to go out, i'm scared.

My only comfort at the moment is thinking that Rocío probably went through the same. Because of course I have to use my favourite character as comfort. And maybe she also thought she was being exaggerated? Or that she was just hearing things and that she was being stupid over it?? 

I'm too fucking anxious maybe. But i'm still scared of those boys.

Stupid, stupid boys, invoking fear into random girls they thought looked pretty or something, washing away their individuality. I wonder how many times this happened.

And maybe it's not even the way I dress. Maybe it could have happened even if I had pants but K had pants, and that day she was all covered, JUST LIKE ME! I HAD THE LONGEST JACKET EVER! And it still happened. There's no way of escaping it??? Do I have to live in fear no matter what???

What was this called?

I don't know.

I don't want to get out. I want to look pretty at home and just at home now...

Edit: It's most likely they weren't whistling at me and K. So, i'm fine now...kind of...

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[dy1ng_onar4inb0w]

Thank you man :)